Courage

“I am learning every day to allow space between where I am and where I want to be to inspire me and not terrify me." - Tracee Ellis Ross

Welcome!

If you are reading this, chances are you have encountered fear on multiple occasions to varying degrees. Do you recall the last time you were able to push through that fear? Do you remember how you felt on the other side?

I'm writing this as a reminder to you of exactly how strong and resilient you are. I know firsthand how easy it can be to fall back into old patterns that enable the fear to lead. How the voices of those who may mean well are echoes keeping you in a comfort zone that ultimately leads to a stagnant and lackluster existence.

Just to share a little about me and how I ended up here now writing this blog.

When I was a child, I could read and write for hours on end, I loved the worlds I could envision in my mind's eye. I was always told I had such a rich imagination by my great teachers who encouraged my expression. As with most children I dreamt big! I wanted to be a best-selling author and maybe even have those books be turned to screenplays, the sky was the limit!

I'm sure you can tell where this is going, but an adult or 2 who were let's say well meaning, said that I had to get serious and find a career, one that required a degree so I could make lots of money so I could take good care of the parents and family who had sacrificed so much for my existence.

So, my sensitive, undiagnosed AuDhd little self-took that to mean that my writing was garbage, would never succeed and was an utter waste of time and space.

What transpired after this shift in focus is a very long and protracted saga that I won't get into now, needless to say it's been a long time coming, but after doing very deep healing, introspection, and personal growth work, here I am finally writing again.

"Courage is resistance to fear, mastery of fear, not absence of fear." - Mark Twain

Even though I'm currently swatting away thoughts of a perfectionist origin, I'm still putting fingertips to keys and doing the damn thing! Little Me's eyes are welling up with tears of release. The resistance to fear, mastery of fear, not absence of fear is crucial to remember when you're faced with doing something that your inner child has been craving. Trust me when I say, it is the only thing you won't regret. This may look different for you but, whatever it is for you, whatever dream was stifled by others or yourself, do it.

What in your life is calling for you to embody the courage you were born with?

With that said, here is a poem titled:

Courage!

To be able to put yourself out there you need to be courageous. The courage to be vulnerable, to be seen, to be perceived, possibly be misunderstood, even judged

To be okay with being disregarded

The courage to be vulnerable even though you don't want to be hurt yet again

Knowing you could be hurt the alternative is staying closed off, isolated and alone

Having the courage to love yourself enough to be open to connection is... no joke but so far for me it's been enlightening. The places within me where I can still do some growing, revisiting the old habits that are healthy has been the first step for me. To have this courage was the unrelenting belief that no matter what the response is I still have me, I'll always have me and I'm never alone. I have my team of guides in the unseen guiding me. I can move mountains with that knowledge alone. I hope this can bring you a perspective you may not have experienced.

I know this will reach those who could gain the most from it. I am grateful to share in knowing that you now see you are not alone!